God of the storm

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"I will praise you in the storm and I will lift my hands."

Casting Crowns - Praise you in the storm

If you have not yet read the blog posts 'Failure part I & II" I would suggest that you do so. This blog will make more sense once you have read those blogs. So let's pick up from there. I was feeling like the biggest failure. I had put time in my studies to ensure that are got distinctions in all my modules in College. I had taken all the opportunities given to me to gain experience in my field and other fields. I graduated Cum Laude and all this was to ensure that I was a few steps ahead of everybody else that would graduate with the same degree. I wanted to be job ready, the employee every employer was looking for. Even with my outstanding academics and many hours of experience I had been unable to find a job for two years after graduation. 

At that moment I didn't understand why. Yes I was doing my post grad but that not what I wanted to be doing. I thought God had forgotten about me. I really battled to have faith in Him, to stay hopeful and to believe in his promises.  I just could not see God in my storm. 

You see I was so blinded by everything that I wanted but didn't have that I often neglected what I had. Even though I did not have the job I wanted or the finances I needed I did not perish. I mentioned in my 'Failure' blog posts that I managed to get a job with a tutoring company that I had previously worked for but I wasn't getting any clients. In 2019 my client base starting picking up and I was making some money that helped a lot but still I wasn't satisfied. I was so focused on the now that I became impatient with God. I couldn't see his plan and I had completely lost site of Him.

At this point in my life I can only be grateful for all that He has done for me. Let me tell you what I have to be grateful for.

In July 2019 I applied for many jobs. I was no longer looking for jobs in my field only I was literally looking for anything. In August, I got a call from a company that hires teachers to teach English online. Despite them loving my CV and thinking that I was a great fit they could not offer me an interview because they were based in Cape Town. I told them I was willing to move but they said they would send my CV to their Pretoria branch. Hopeful, I waited for the Pretoria branch to contact me. Unfortunately, they didn't and I lost all hope again. 

In October, I began to plan my trip to Cape Town to fetch a few things I had left behind at college after graduation. As I finalised all the details something told me to call MPC back and tell them that I would be in Cape Town and ask if they would be willing to interview me while I was there. As always I ignored the voice and went on with my life. 

Mid November, I packed my bags and bought a one-way ticket to Cape Town. When I was in college I had decided that I wanted to live in Cape Town. That's why I bought a one way ticket. Two days before my trip I called MPC and landed an interview. Fast forward, I went to the interview and got the job. I started working on the 3rd of December. 

March 2020, the lockdown began and I was fortunate enough to be able to work from home. Only in that situation did I understand that God already knew that we were going to have Corona and that I would need a job that I could do from home in order to sustain myself. You see if I had gotten a marketing, journalism, public relations or other job; I might have been among the people who were out of work for the past six months. Then I would have been in a worse pit and more doubtful then I was a year ago.

My experience taught me to trust God's plans, to be assured that His timing is right and to know that He is with me through my storms. He is the God of storms. Nothing happens in your life that God has no control of. 

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