Uncultured Hybrid

"I will praise you in the storm and I will lift my hands." Casting Crowns - Praise you in the storm If you have not yet read the blog posts 'Failure part I & II" I would suggest that you do so. This blog will make more sense once you have read those blogs. So let's pick up from there. I was feeling like the biggest failure. I had put time in my studies to ensure that are got distinctions in all my modules in College. I had taken all the opportunities given to me to gain experience in my field and other fields. I graduated Cum Laude and all this was to ensure that I was a few steps ahead of everybody else that would graduate with the same degree. I wanted to be job ready, the employee every employer was looking for. Even with my outstanding academics and many hours of experience I had been unable to find a job for two years after graduation.  At that moment I didn't understand why. Yes I was doing my post grad but that not what I wanted to be d...

"That is so shallow" My brother said to my sister after she said "I can never marry an ugly man." I remember that day like it was today and my brother's comment really stuck with me. Some time last year I decided to write a series of letters that I would give to my future husband. I had entitled the file 'Dear future husband' I started of by thanking him for choosing me and for loving me as I am. Then I went on to sharing all the expectations I had for my future husband. I made a list. It went something like this: "I never wanted to get married but if you are reading this you must have swept me off my feet and changed my world for the beyter. This is a letter from the girl that had not met you. This is what I imagine my future husband to be like: 1. God fearing 2. Same believes (Seventh day Adventist) 3. Goal driven 4. Ambitious 5. Blue eyes 6. Blonde hair 7. Tall 8. Handsome There are many other things but you will find th...