Perplexed

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Today I decided to post a poem that I wrote a while back. The next few blogs will be a bit on the dark side but that's because we can also learn from our dark moments. I told you guys that I express myself better when I write. Life is my inspiration when I write. I don't just get inspired by my own experiences but also by the experiences of others.

This specific poem was inspired by my own experience. I was at a stage in my life where walls were really strong, emotions heightened and boys wanting to be more than friends. It was really difficult for me to hear someone tell me that they found me attractive or to believe that they were interested in me. I was very doubtful and super suspicious of anyone that approached. It's not like I had been hurt by a guy before, it was just my low self-esteem and insecurities making me uncertain. 

Wrote this just after a guy told me how he would like to get to know me better. I had already interrogated him to try and understand his intentions. I was puzzled, perplexed and that is where the title emerged. Hope you enjoy.

Confused, uncertain and doubtful.
When the words uttered by someone 
Seem to be just meaningless words to you.
When you just can't seem to see through a person
And to you, it's like they are just not genuine.

Where does the problem lie?

Is it you that can't seem to trust anyone
Or is it the individual that is trying too hard to be genuine?
Will, you ever believe the words they say
Or will you let your mind torment you?

When you are just uncertain about a person's feelings
Do you still build a relationship 
Or do you build walls?



Comments

  1. Anonymous7 July 2019 at 12:34

    I really enjoyed reading this. I love the way you write and your messages are inspiring.

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    1. Uncultured Hybrid7 July 2019 at 12:47

      Thank you very much. Hope you read the other posts, if you did leave a comment and let me know if there is anything you would like me to write about.

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